You cannot imagine how far I have fallen and how hard I fought to rise back up in the past year. I have gone through a nasty break-up, battled addiction, and conquered my own demons. Today, I am 1 year 6 months sober. I can't say that I am proud of this, because I wish I had never had an addiction in the first place. But, I am extremely grateful for the fact that I have been clean this long.
My drug of choice? Methamphetamine. Its a very dirty, nasty drug that turns you into a very dirty, nasty person, no matter your intentions. It began as a feel good, party thing only done once in a while. Once in a while became every weekend, and soon every weekend became every day; and instead of doing it with friends, I found myself doing it alone. I don't know how it progressed that way, but it did. My life began to revolve around it and I found myself having less time for people who weren't my drug "friends".
Then came the night that would be the beginning of a major change in my life. I happened to be on Myspace that night, which obviously I rarely do. I was shopping with my boyfriend at the time, and I received a message. Normally, I don't respond to random men hitting on me, but for some reason I did. The guy and I hit it off and we ended up talking all night. It turned out he liked to get high too. We made plans to hang out in the morning.
I went over to Eric's house and we instantly connected in a way that is difficult to describe. It was like we'd been friends all our lives. At the end of the week, he confronted me. He told me he hadn't seen me sleep or eat all week and maybe we both had a problem. So right then and there we smashed our pipe and flushed what drugs we had left and so began attempt #1 to get clean.
The next few months were great and horrible at the same time. We fought our addictions together and became inseparable. Rick and I broke up because I needed time to fix myself. Besides, I had developed feelings for Eric. We finally kicked our habit for good at the tail end of January.
Eric and I began dating on Valentine's Day and it has been amazing ever since. I of course have had one hell of a time rebuilding the relationships I had damaged while using. Once I came clean about my problem, alot of my friends and family stopped trusting me, and wondered if I had actually stopped using. I don't blame them. I relapsed four times before I managed to have any real sober time. I have my friends, my family, and God back in my life. Its been one bumpy ride, but what I have experienced has helped me grow into the person I am today.
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