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I have been clean almost 2 in half years and now currently work at a treatment center for men. The craving comes in goes. For me it hits me during times of stress , i just stay active. I have alot of other side effects from the long term effects. i used to cook the *%%+ and consumed mass amounts for many years. i felt depleted when i got clean. now the life i have is the best and im still in the beginnings of it. just now starting to be able to sleep properly and attempting a healthy relationship at the moment. My paranoia and lack of trust and such insecurities haunt me. but i know that today the life i have is ALOT better then what it was. I have to remain grateful at all times or ill be tweeking again in no time. and when i use everything flies out the window. my worst day clean is nothing compared to a day of using. shits just not worth it. i do alot of meditation etc so when i get cravings i meditate or get a massage or jog . i listen to music and mix alot of wierd techno *%%+ to keep me occupied hope this helps. oh yea and drink tea and watch the sunset.