Hello,
im sonofmam i have been watching this forum for a few years now and never posted but i am laying here contimplateing just giving up.
i have a greatfull family who helped me get into a treatment center on Jan 22 2006 and have been clean ever since.
But as i sit here today i look around me and realise in the last year i have lost my girlfriend of 2 years a wounderful job my house and am on the verge of
loseing my car.
i feel like im in the same place i was when i was useing and now i find myself wanting to just go away because i refuse to touch that $$%% again.
i feel like no matter what i do nothing good comes of it.
my brother and i have never really had any form of a relationship and now what little bit we did have is non existant i havent talked to him in almost a
year.
I havent talked to my father in about the same amount of time.
There both in law enforcement and i find that every conversation ends in a fight of some form.
My mom and i have always had a rocky relationship with its ups and downs but things never seem to work out for eather of us.
I feel like im a burdon on my friends and family and i dont know what to do help me please.........
i see what little family and friend relationships i have falling apart right in front of my eyes...................
i dont know what too do anymore
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Posts: 714 (03/05/09 08:51:49) SkyzBoardSupporter |
Well, SonofMAM, it is a pleasure to finally meet you!!
I was surprised this morning to get an e-mail that I got a post on MM. It was actually for Ricky - I'm sure it is confusing that he uses my computer to post and it looks like it's from me but Ricky is still clean since February 2007! It is amazing to see the change in him since he quit meth. This board really means a lot to him. Guess he feels like he's with friends that understand him Anyway when I seen that you had posted it was a bit of a shock. Kind of a disturbing reminder of why I am always coming back to this board and how I got here to begin with. METH KILLS !!! I'm sorry to hear that you are down about everything. I'm not sure of all the details, did you get laid off? With the state of our economy your not the only one bumming. I'm not sure what to say to encourage you but you have to focus on the good things in your life. Maybe you have things out of perspective - Is your glass half empty or half full? Are you getting out and doing things - meeting new people, new women? the state our economy is in I imagine there are many people falling into depression. sure that the state of your mind is good. Find the good things in the ordinary things, the sunshine, spring flowers and trees budding, the voice of the songbird. . . Things and possessions come and go and can be replaced. YOU can not. I know your mom and your brother and dad love you dearly and even though your relationships may not be perfect - nobody is - know that they care and that is why you are not dead from meth. I hope this reply encourages you at least a little. I was shocked to see you posted I had to reply. You have come down a long, hard road, and you have come far my friend. Too many times in my life when I thought things couldn't get any worse and I look back and realize that all my needs (maybe not my expectations) were met. Don't turn back and don't forget METH KILLS.
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Posts: 3 (03/05/09 13:43:36) |
This is true i was laid off due to our economy and have been doing temp work on and off but even that has slowed down so much. I have watched this forum for a long time now but am not the type of person who wants to say anything but i decided i need to speak out. It is nice to finaly meet you and your right meth does kill but as i sit here today i notice that even tho i am clean and free from this drug i am repeating some of the very similar actions i used to and i am struggling to understand y that is. Im glad ricky is holding in there please tell him he is in my thoughts and to stay strong and always ask for help if needed and that is y i am here today. |
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Posts: 715 (03/06/09 18:38:47) SkyzBoardSupporter |
I just found this and want to share it with everyone. . . I don't know how to link you , so if you can't download a free e-book let me know.
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Posts: 716 (03/06/09 18:46:46) SkyzBoardSupporter |
I hope you are able to get AND READ this. You should read chapter 5 and 6.
Best Regards - Stay on the road of LIFE |
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Posts: 4179 (07/01/09 18:36:19) Meth Madness Owner,Chat Monitor |
Hey there Sonofmam,,
I just wanted to possibly get an update from you? I've been away from the boards due to my health and other issues but just read your words and wonder how you are doing , now? Possible update? Sky    
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