Meth Madness

A Song For A Sleepwalker

feeds@yuku.com (alda) — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 21:17:17 GMT

A Song For A Sleepwalker by Something For Kate

I'd like to share this song that we all can relate to. We are like sleepwalking through this World. Enjoy!

Love,
Alda

No more will i play along
and no more will i tell myself, how it's gonna be from now on
because i've been stalling in between, and i've been dragging my feet
making bets that this isn't happening...

Anyone out there?

feeds@yuku.com (alda) — Thu, 22 Oct 2009 18:12:33 GMT

Hi all..i'm new here!

Just wondering what happen to everyone here since the last post (2008)? Just dropping in to wake you guys up a little..hehe..anyways i am currently trying to quit meth and i am scared and sometimes i feel like losing hope cause the tought of waking up sober kills me inside and also outside. At times i feel like death is the only answer to heal all this pain. I am very thankful that i have found this site knowing that i am not alone. Cause from where i...

Today

feeds@yuku.com (alda) — Tue, 20 Oct 2009 20:48:01 GMT

Meth-dicated. With sweaty palms, rapid heartbeat and feeling better again intoxicated. The only thing that i can remember is last night i woke up from sleep feeling empty, angry and extremely excited to reach to my friend called "Meth". I have been here before. This is what they call a relapse.

2004 is when i was introduced to Meth. Days, weeks and months passed by me and the next thing i realised after almost 1 year, i quit. Traumatised, depressed and lost is what...

Help

feeds@yuku.com (fidelity) — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 02:25:56 GMT

I need help. I have been using for roughly 5 years. I'm past the point of wanting to stop, but anytime I try, my business suffers. I own a company and run it single handedly. (not a storefront or anything) and I just cant fill orders when I am without.....how do you fight the sleep/lack of ability to do anything? I can't let my business go under and its stopping me from being able to stop using.......what can I do?

My Book Is released!

feeds@yuku.com (swatmeth) — Fri, 02 Oct 2009 16:18:56 GMT

I lived many years within the world of Meth and lost someone very close to me causing me to turn against everything and everyone I have ever known. Please visit my website and say hello. www.albuquerquebreakingbad.com Thanks everyone. Swatmeth

I Believe

feeds@yuku.com (milyndajoy) — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 18:35:19 GMT

I Believe there is a blessing in store for me each day.
I won't waist time seeking it because it's sure to come my way.

I Believe with every rose there will always be a torn,
And with every death that comes a new baby will be born.

I Believe the stars continue to shine, even when unseen by our human eyes.
Just as the mountains are still there when our dark clouds are passing by.

I Believe we all have a special gift that...

Sky's Journal

feeds@yuku.com (Skyzthelimit) — Sat, 29 Aug 2009 09:59:45 GMT

I decided to restart my journal. Personal reasons.

Anyway, ...

Lots of things going on but hoping to get some things worked out as best as possible. Enjoying my son growing up and wishing all the very best for him in the future. My medical situation has seen much improvement. Happy about that.

I've been doing a homeopathic (all natural) diet program and...

Ding

feeds@yuku.com (ding) — Sat, 08 Aug 2009 00:32:26 GMT

I wanna feel again...

As I contemplate on what to say in my personal journal, I realize that there is so much negativity that comes with using meth. I knew what I wanted to say. It was on the edge of my tongue, on the edge of my fingertips. But just as I began to type, tears filled my eyes because I didn't know where to start. So I will just start off with a list of things that once made me who I was before I began using, and have now lost due to using. I remember who...

Need some help and advice...

feeds@yuku.com (littletosser) — Tue, 28 Jul 2009 04:29:01 GMT
I am a 39 year old who is in a relationship with a recovering meth addict. We have been together for a year and a half and she is approaching her 4 year milestone through the N.A. programme. Having never been a user I have had to learn a lot about the drug and the after effects and have been astounded by the destructiveness of crystal meth. I really had no idea how powerful this stuff was, especially to someone with a very busy mind and less than perfect childhood...

The beginning of the neverending.

feeds@yuku.com (bekkibek) — Thu, 09 Jul 2009 00:26:28 GMT

I am Bekki.
20 years young.

The glitz and glamor of the city lights drew me in at a young age.
My 18th birthday in sydney saw the beginning of a new life, as an adult.
Making my own decisions, standing on my own two feet. But who was to know my decisions would lead me beyond the glitz and glam. Beyond the illusion of happiness and freedom the city held. Into the seedy underbelly of the real world, beyond all the fame. Beyond the broadway, into the deep,...

UNENDING STRUGGLE

feeds@yuku.com (delussional) — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 13:10:17 GMT

A life of happiness im sure that ill miss

just to feel the lips of the devils kiss

4 years gone and wasted

a normal drug free life i ve barley tasted

all the pain i caused and chose not to see

is right here staring right back at me

remembering the many mistakes I made

gives me the strength to face each new day

I have to stop and look in the mirror

and remember the delonna that once was...

addiction

feeds@yuku.com (delussional) — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 11:17:25 GMT

every day I repeat the same old routine
tryin to beat my addiction to speed
so many days and nights gone and wasted
a normal drug free life i ve barley tasted
comitting crimes just to stay high
wanting to quit but I never try
I am so afraid it wont ever go away
stuck in a playground of fire
where I punished to play

haters

feeds@yuku.com (delussional) — Thu, 02 Jul 2009 11:08:04 GMT

HERE I SIT ONCE AGAIN WONDERING IF ILL EVER WIN!
EVERY TIME I GET JUST A LITTLE A HEAD
SOMEONE ALWAYS BELIEVES WHAT WAS SAID
EVERY TIME THERE IS EVEN A TINY BIT OF DOUBT
ITS BECAUSE THEY HAD TO LOOK DEEP WITHIN
AND REALIZE WHAT THEYRE ABOUT
I FEEL BAD IN SO MANY WAYS
BECAUSE I NEVER HAD ONE OF THESE HATERISH DAYS
I AM CONTENT WITH WHO I AM INSIDE
I DONT HAVE TO MAKE BELIEVE OR REPEATEDLY LIE
I...

Whats Worse? The Come Down or Dealing with Life While Healing From Meth Abuse?

feeds@yuku.com (mizrossi) — Wed, 01 Jul 2009 13:43:59 GMT
I am feeling super shitty right now. I been up all night on one when a few days ago I had promised myself I would quit. It is ridiculous because as soon as this physically and mentally shitty feeling goes away it's back to the other bad feeling of being anxious and anti-social and depressed. How does one cope? They say this feeling lasts for a few years even after you quit and the only way i've been used to handling it is to smoke. What the hell, and I don't have any...

To my four daughters

feeds@yuku.com (delussional) — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 23:29:30 GMT

Odyssey mystic diamond and jaide

I wish I could make up for the mistakes that ive made

Since I cant fix whats already done

Its so hard to deal with and I constantly run

I cant began to imagine the tears that you've cried

And I know that I caused it so I kept gettin high

Its an unanswered question Ill ask every day

How could I abandon you and just walk away

Im sorry for leaving you guys all...

through the eyes of a junkie

feeds@yuku.com (delussional) — Mon, 29 Jun 2009 02:19:50 GMT

The destruction is injected and all worries disappear
Your addiction unnoticed total annihilation is near
The first time with a needle in your arm is no big thing
you just want to feel that so talked about unforgettable sting
so eventually you will try it a few more times
cuz the feeling you get is incrediable times five
And now its just a never again acheivable high
It has not became a problem yet
your obssesion and curiosity have...

letter to my addicton

feeds@yuku.com (delussional) — Sun, 28 Jun 2009 16:54:35 GMT

All the unforgetable days and nights, with alot of ups and hardly a fight

You were there through thick and thin, but i never want to see you again

You made me feel things I could never explain,the minute your %#@+@ ##$ entered my veins

You destroyed the delonna I use to be, and through drug laced eyes i lived in fantasy

Before I realized what you took away...You invaded my soul and continued to play

Well today is the day...

Meth memoir and blog

feeds@yuku.com (hvnlykarma) — Fri, 26 Jun 2009 08:24:37 GMT
I write a blog about my meth addiction and recovery. I've also written a book, my memoir, about the same thing. I've been postig excerpts from the book recently and would appreciate any feedback. I'm trying to build my platform which will help me get a literary agent. Subscribing and or following my blog would be soooo helpful. I hope you'll visit soon.

STILL KLEEEEN!

feeds@yuku.com (kruise454) — Thu, 25 Jun 2009 17:43:09 GMT
WOW, it's sure been along time, but I thought I would just post an update. I am now registered with WA. State DOH as a CD Counselor and am still with Sundown M Ranch. I even quite smoking 2 1/2 years ago. Tarin is now 3 yrs. old and getting to be so independent. Such a big boy! The Fox and I are still together and both are still sober, he since 7/2005 and I since 10/2005. The emotional roller coaster finally slowed down for me about 2 yrs into my sobriety, but really I am grateful for the...

Things That Make Hearts Break

feeds@yuku.com (Tommy J) — Sun, 24 May 2009 17:56:12 GMT

Things That Make Hearts Break